Anjasaurus

Gaming and reading

My interest for stories, reading and gaming has been renewed, I think partly due to discussing it more with friends. I also had a bit of a dip in my Aion experience, feeling left out of my guild. I gathered up some courage and posted on the forum about it, and voila!, everything is fine, more or less.

Aion is grindy, there’s no point in denying it, but I’m trying to find my place in the grind and enjoying it in my own way. I enjoy the social parts way too much to drop the game, the community and chat is 50% of my gaming. Hopefully I’ll find good friends in this guild, and find a wiki-like community to join in with.

I’ve also tried Dragon Age recently, and it has a play style I’m not really used to from any other game (I know I’m a bad geek for not having played Baldur’s Gate or NWN). The first tutorial is including a lot of information and I got confused and tired quite fast. It will get another chance though, once I can convince myself to take time off studying and Aion.

One of my friends just bought the New Super Mario for Wii, and it sounds great! Every now and then I really wish I had a Wii. But on the other hand, I am a social gamer and I would never play it without friends.. I’m frustrated, there are so many games I want to play and so little time!

A short summary

The crazy week is over, and things are definitely calming down. Maybe too much even. I’ve had things to do all day for a week, and now I have nothing. It’s hard to get used to, because I have to revise and such, but with no schedule I get lazy and slow.

But, knowing me, I will get restless soon and get things done. I’ve noticed it more and more over the last days, I can’t sit still and just do nothing, just relax. I need something to keep my mind occupied, or I will get bored :)

One week and one day until the first exam, and another four days until the last. In two weeks I will be home with mum and dad. So little time! I never realised the end of term was so close. This has been one of the best terms so far. I’ve spent a lot of time with old friends (<3) and made a lot of new ones (<3). I have found out things about myself I didn’t know before, and it feels good :)

Winter

Now, Mr Winter, it’s time to arrive. We’ve switched back to winter time (that’s what it’s called here, I guess normal time is more correct), and I want snow. I even bought ginger bread. Come on!

My littlest sister arrives today, and she’s staying for almost a week. I will be awesome to meet her, and get to talk and laugh like we did. We will probably get bored and tired of eachother also, but that’s just normal :P I have this week “off” from uni, going to try and do some uni things but not too much. I just want to hide and ignore it atm.

Maybe I should write that email.

Being busy

I’m back home. In my own messy room. <3

I don’t think being busy is for me. I really prefer being home, doing what I feel like doing, not running away on meetings and musts all the time. I’ve taken on too much to do, and I feel like dropping it all and just sleep.

I feel like I’m doing things because people think you “should”, not because I want to, at least not anymore. I’m allergic to should, sometimes. I like to know how things are supposed to be, but I don’t like things you “should” do. Makes a lot of sense? :P

At the same time I doubt myself. Maybe I’m just being lazy and silly, and things will be fun, later on. It’s like I don’t trust my own judgement, I listen too much to people saying “You can’t know until you’ve tried!” and I just think, how long will I have to try before I can know?

Time

I’m back home, with mum, dad, sis and her boyfriend. Spent Sunday evening and Monday morning on the train, on top of that you actually have someone to be social with here, most of the time. The result: 254 unread items in Google Reader. Since Sunday afternoon!

It’s nice to spend time with the family though, and definitely worth the information overload :P The only thing I miss is online time to keep in touch with friends :)

Flow

In a scaringly effective flow at the moment. All my time is devoted to school work and such things, and I don’t even feel the need to have  “my own time” as much as I usually do. I’m looking forward to free time, as always, but I end up bored and restless and just do what needs to be done. I guess having too much to do in a very short time helps, but I get absorbed in a way that I’ve never been before.

I’m afraid it will all come back to me afterwards. I will break or collapse or something, and not be able to do the fun stuff I’m planning to do. Too much focus on this last week. I need to give myself some rest, let things go, focus on one thing at a time and not everything at once. That’s what I do during the days, to escape myself. I do one assignment to be able to avoid thinking on others, not to get them done, because it doesn’t help, there are still more to come.

As Hammy says, It never ends that way too!

My life in six words

Ok, first something else, then back to the title :P Had three lessons today, two of which I handled myself. I’m tired. 16-17 year olds can be.. tiring. And chatty! The first lesson was about writing poems/summaries in six words of love, loneliness, friendship and.. something else I don’t remember. Hence the title :)

And the last class I had. I love them. Second years, relaxed, chatty, just awesome. They are positive and I could joke around with them alot, so I really felt great in there. I told them they’re one of the best classes I’ve ever had, I hope they can believe me. :)

Ok, back to the title. My life, at the moment, in six words:
Work. Little time. Want summer soon.