Anjasaurus

Crazy week

Starting today, and until next Wednesday, life will be crazy. This is what will be happening:

  • Wednesday: Scout meeting, uni meeting
  • Thursday: Decoration planning, shopping a shirt for Saturday, dancing
  • Friday: Planning my oral presentation, LOTR
  • Saturday: Tidying, laundry, chat here and then the big dinner
  • Sunday: Scout thing (which I might skip), emptying the big room, team building
  • Monday: Getting the floor polished, preparing oral presentation and lecture
  • Tuesday: Meeting, oral presentation, lecture, planning of the next dinner
  • Wednesday: Meeting, exam help, preparations and another big dinner

I think that’s it..

Back

I’m back home, things are crazily busy just before the holidays. London was great, although a bit cold. I’m glad we didn’t get much rain. :) I might write up something more on the trip when I’ve finished the school paper on it. And things have calmed down. Blergh.

The grass is always greener..

I keep thinking everything else is better than what I have. If I have to write an essay, an exam would be lovely. (Just that the opposite was true only a year ago.) When doing mostly nothing, I wanted to be busy and do lots of fun things. And now I’m busy doing “lots of fun things” (which turned out not too fun) and all I want is to stay home and sleep.

I don’t like this mode, when I’m dissatisfied with everything. It might be normal mode, but I prefer to think that I can be happy and satisfied most of the time.

I have a new goal. Survive this week. :P

Being busy

I’m back home. In my own messy room. <3

I don’t think being busy is for me. I really prefer being home, doing what I feel like doing, not running away on meetings and musts all the time. I’ve taken on too much to do, and I feel like dropping it all and just sleep.

I feel like I’m doing things because people think you “should”, not because I want to, at least not anymore. I’m allergic to should, sometimes. I like to know how things are supposed to be, but I don’t like things you “should” do. Makes a lot of sense? :P

At the same time I doubt myself. Maybe I’m just being lazy and silly, and things will be fun, later on. It’s like I don’t trust my own judgement, I listen too much to people saying “You can’t know until you’ve tried!” and I just think, how long will I have to try before I can know?

Overload

Too much going on right now. Brain overload. I need to learn to think of one thing at a time, not everything all the time. Argh.