I need a break from my head. I’m such a mess. I suspect I’m torturing myself by thinking, but I don’t know any other way to get over it than thinking.
Doing is a way, of course, but I don’t know what to do.
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Talking is another way (unless you classify that as “doing”).
Though, some things are hard to talk about. They are in your head, that’s for sure, but simply refuse to transform into words when you try to express them.
I’ve tried talking, and it doesn’t really help. Maybe I’m hiding the core problem from myself and just continue to argue and talk about the things it leads to. I don’t know.
This might be the first time in my life when it’s actually better to ignore it!
If you’re sure about that, then I say you should ignore it.
I’m not sure, and that’s my problem :)
But I’m going to try the ignore tactics for a while. Maybe stop worrying will help me stop worrying about how I act when I stop worrying about how I act. Confusing?
Riiiiight. What she said ;)
Go with it for a while. At least, I hope, it can’t get worse.
You always confuse me sis ;)
The problem is, what I said actually makes sense to me and I mean it. So now I want to explain it ;)
Well then, go ahead. Please explain, ’cause I for one am having some problems following :)
Hmm. Just realised that what I wrote could be interpreted in a fairly insulting way. Didn’t mean it that way at all.
Ok, here goes: If I stop worrying overall, I might get over my fear that I will act stupid and weird if I don’t think alot about how I act.
Less confusing?
Ah. Yes, less confusing.
I believe you’re on to something. Sounds to me like you want to “release” yourself and come to realise that you simply are appreciated for who you are, though I might be in the wrong about that. Honorable goal if I’m right.
Lay out the sky of the jigsaw! (if you understand what I mean)
Yes exactly, that’s what I want. :) But I still don’t trust it enough to let go, because I’m still afraid I might be wrong and.. something bad will happen. What kind of bad, I don’t know. Hopefully I will get closer to my goal with time. :)
I think this fall will be entirely focused on the sky. I’m just excited about it, which leads to some kind of stress that I wont be able to/have time to.